Saturday, January 5, 2008♥
my precious ♥ 10:38 AM
in loving memory. always and forever.
i can still remember her birthday. by heart. and i know i`ll know it forever. i remembered the first time she was brought into this world. how excited the bunch of kids at school were, to the extent they video-ed the whole procedure. i remembered how i would go visit the whole family during my breaks, because she was one of the few that would take my time of smoking. the vigorous interviews, explainations, convincing just to have a roof over her head
i remembered how herman held the box while riding the fireblade. how i got angry because he said it was dangerous to do so, but i insisted still, and in the end, we did ferry her back to drive 73 on a fireblade because he knew i wanted to keep her so much
the scratching pole, on which she was able to climb up, and how i would be so proud of her each time she was able to balance herself on top of it.
the company she gave me throughout my a levels, how she would sit on my notes and start stratching and nibbling on them, just to distract me, and tell me to study her, instead of my notes. and the times she just had to irritate me by standing in front of the computer's monitor or on my laptop's keypad.
and yes, believe it or not, she needs a soft toy to sleep with. first it was the giraffe, our yjc mascot (the one sufyan black gave me), then it was mama's white teddybear, then it was farn's mr beans teddy. when i slept yesterday, i envisage hearing her soft snore, and light vibrations, signs to tell me that she needed the warmth of a human being. it amazed me how she would find her way through my comforters each night, and her favourite sleeping spot was my backside. the most heat i guess.
the best listening ear ever, because she never had anything to say back to me. all i needed was her pair of adoring blue eyes staring back at me each time i needed to cry my heart out.
she was there, through my worst period of times. 2007. she stayed through the whole painful year with me. 16 months.
why god. why did you let her leave in a painful way. is this retribution for all the mistakes that i committed?
milkshake, vanilla, just one of the first few names, she attended to. baby, putih. but pussy still remains.
So close..
in loving memory. always and forever.