Wednesday, March 19, 2008♥
beats merchant ♥ 8:13 PM
Love is, above all else, the gift of oneself.
-Jean Anouilh
I cant help it but realized that indeed love is a special thing, or perhaps, more specifically an emotion. It is a powerful gift bestowed to mankind, and is present in all man. It is the one main thing that drives a person to live and fight for his life. How we use that gift differs. How strong, passionate, or even weak, the love in us would depend on how much effort we put in. Without effort, the end result would never be sweet. It would be wrong to actually say that in this generation or at this particular time, love cease to exist in a relationship between a man and a woman. How can a relationship possibly work if we based it on our needs for inanimate objects that does not exist forever? All the words sprouted from my father's mouth were mere bullshit, and nothing would ever change my perception or the way i should feel.
Though today was an all girls day for me and an all boys day for babyboy, i made my way to beats merchant after our failed suntanning session. Seeing him in his all white shirt and jeans just made my heart skipped a beat for a moment. When i opened the door to the recording room, I didnt see my boyfriend. I only saw his twin cousins. My heart beat very fast when he walked beside me to Kampong Glam Cafe. Its a feeling that was never lost, and i believe that this feeling will stay. I want to believe that anyway. Its been a long time, someone stole my heart this way. And want me to stay for long. I like having my meals when he is around. The coonversations we have over meals are always interesting.
It's hard always wanting to stay around him, and time is never on my side. The moment we`re together, time seems to pass faster. No matter what, we`re taking this opportunity to be a pair of more matured individuals. We`re learning from our past mistakes. and though this is a very bad ordeal for the both of us, i believe that it is an educational one. In the past i used to promise him that i would learn to appreciate his efforts more, but it never seemed to work. well in this case, the silver lining behind the grey clouds is that we`re appreciative of each other's presence now. The moment we`re together, we would spend it like it is our last moments together. But the best thing is that, when i feel angry inside towards him, i calm myself down by telling myself that i might never see him tomorrow. It's hard to find a farhana that you see now in the years before 2008. But this is what love mould me into.
So close..
