dear god, pls give me the strength to move on to better things in life. make me the girl i was many many years ago. the same one who had dreams and yet have the capability and motivation to achieve them. dear god, show me the signs to make the right decisions. pls guide me towards becoming a better person, one who is wise and generous, never putting herself first.
today i woke up thinking of you, wondering if you`re doing the same. how should i put my message across. though on the day that i left, you told me that you love me, i still wonder if it came from your heart or was it an obligation you felt you had to do to someone you already had as a girlfriend. i was so eager to check my mail. everyday i looked forward to the time we checked into the hotel, and finally today on the third night i was able to check my mails. unfortunately, nothing came from you. how dampened i became, but i still fight the urge to push these tears away. do you even know how empty i feel. this is not purely the cry of a girl who is emotionally driven but a girl who is need of love and attention. i crave for these lost feelings. you know how things are at home, how things work in my family, and you know how much i need you. and its not even the money that matters.
baby have i already become a shadow of your life, something you regard as a burden?
So close..
WELCOME♥
"Two, two silhouettes in a room
Almost obscurred by the gloom.."
Two Cigarettes in the Dark
-P.F. Webster, L. Pollack
THE BELLE♥
They call me Farhana. I still suffer from bullimia. I am a small girl, with mega huge dreams. Pursuing a double major in English and English Literature. Though educating runs in my blood, i am very intent to fly. I have high hopes to conquer the eight wonders of the world. Other than classic Shakespeare tragedies, i am passionate about performing arts. Though i can be a girly-girl at times, i like to get rough and sweat under the blazing sun. I love indo flicks, esp sappy love ones. I love kids. I would love to hunt down animal abusers. oooh, yes, I am your average Gemini. and lastly, if there are things called amour and faith, please help me believe in them.
