I always tell my students that life is unfair. and yet i myself find it very hard to give in to this notion. We as mere human beings with no special powers whatsoever just have to resign ourselves to fate and have to accept whatever that has been bestowed unto us. No matter how hard we try to fight for something, we will always end up with what has been written in the books of fate. Now then, we'll start asking, wouldnt it be good and life will be much easier if this book of fate is available at Popular bookstores, Kinokuniya etc. Then we wouldnt hope so much for something that we will never get in the end. well. that's life i guess.
For those who are wondering how Farhana has been after leaving life as a camp instructor, well. life has been hard, and the going is getting tougher i foresee. This is just putting my love life aside. For me i believe that this is indeed the time when i should stop mistreating many others. I dun want to be unfair to those who think they can have something going on with me. STOP! because honestly, i really dont have much to give anymore, be it my affection, time, money, happiness and what every girlfriend should give to their other half. I will just save this for that very very special someone in the future. snorts snorts grunts grunts
Why am i so busy all the time? I dont think i owe anyone any explainations because
It is not that i am a very boring person because i
I wish i have all the time in the world. I admit i am envious of those who have so much time till all that is said is "im bored", "boredom kills" "this is what you do when boredom gets the better of you......................" etc. i want to know what it feels like to say that.
For the benefits of friends of whom i owe countless dates, meetups, gatherings and just normal slacking lepaking time, i am a soul-less robot taking shelter in Farhana's body. I teach sec 1 tech, sec 2 acad sec 4 tech maths and science in the morning, i juggle 2 to 3 tuitions in the afternoon till night and lastly, i have my night lessons at SIM on tuesdays and thursday. I have lesson plans worksheets powerpoint slides tests books to read assignments to complete. Take that. And if that is still hard to imagine, just understand this part. Farhana is very very busy and yet still tries to take every effort to make everyone smile.
Again i believe that the remaining time available if there is in the first place, (and for your information, this only happens if suddenly a tutee happily decides to cancel tuition last min,) i rather spend it beneficially with loved ones or just mere catching up with very good old friends. It doesnt matter if i dont have or never will have time for myself. as long as others are happy, then i will be smiling. yes, this may sound so boring but i guess that is what happens when you`re a grown up. You just view life differently. You work hard, too hard in fact, and at the end of the day, when it's time to let down your hair, you enjoy and party hard the way it should be. then life is indeed deserving no matter how unfair it is.