Monday, October 20, 2008♥
dear mr rockstar ♥ 11:36 AM
i can always think of the times when you hurt me just to forget you, or read that particular mail over and over again. but at the end of the day, i`ll end up missing or wishing that you acknowledge me. how did things end up this way? the day you went away, my life turn a whole 180 degrees. things have never been the same. self-distructing? i no longer am able to pinpoint all the blame to you. and to this day, i am still seeking the answers.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on
with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend
I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
So close..
