Monday, October 27, 2008♥
farn locksley ♥ 5:04 PM
and the heart beats fast at every thought of u. ive been thinking a lot about you. about us. and im pretty much unsure of what i want. i dont want you to end up like all the boys that ive dated, if one day it is over. i just want you to be so much more. even though...
So close..
Monday, October 20, 2008♥
dear mr rockstar ♥ 11:36 AM
i can always think of the times when you hurt me just to forget you, or read that particular mail over and over again. but at the end of the day, i`ll end up missing or wishing that you acknowledge me. how did things end up this way? the day you went away, my life turn a whole 180 degrees. things have never been the same. self-distructing? i no longer am able to pinpoint all the blame to you. and to this day, i am still seeking the answers.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on
with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend
I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
So close..
Monday, October 13, 2008♥
i love you seth. ♥ 12:09 PM
i woke up today breathing fresh new air. i felt good because i woke up today with thoughts of better days that will come. i woke up today thinking how my parents love seth, and how much im beginning to love him for the way he is. i woke up today feeling blessed because it seemed that amidst the dark clouds that overcast my life the past few days, my future seems brighter than ever. ive been worrying too much about what is going to happen five years down the road that ive actually ignored my tomorrows. one step at a time, that is all that matters. i worried so much about how people think, talk, bitch about me that ive forgotten the real me. and i thanked god for allowing me to meet seth. he may not be a somebody now, but i know we`ll helped each other through for now. i love you seth.
amin.
So close..
Saturday, October 11, 2008♥
- ♥ 1:15 PM
im really beginning to hate boys.
So close..
Saturday, October 4, 2008♥
- ♥ 2:50 PM
ive never been more confused in my life, never about guys. it has always been i get attached and i stay attached until shit happens and i leave. no hanging around, because i hate to be in a game i know i`ll end up losing. yes, my name is already tarnished, but i dont really care. i want to be selfish now. i know i dont have to stay, not for anyone in particular because i dont owe them a living, but why the hell am i still here.
i want to be a smart beautiful elegant and successful lady, and i know, a man will not help me achieve this goal.
So close..
Sunday, September 28, 2008♥
♥ 2:10 PM
oh how i hate this me.
So close..
Thursday, September 25, 2008♥
shit and whats not. ♥ 12:14 AM
i really need a break. all this controversial issues, and making me feeling oh-so-guilty over nothing. people need to realise, i dont owe them a living, neither do i owe them my life.
get a grip girl.
So close..
